They stood together in the public reference library, surveying the rows and rows of books. Charlie looked nervously sideways at Linnea. She seemed...different. On edge. She had asked him to come with her and help her find something today, but had refused to tell him what it was. Now he stood awkwardly as her eyes skimmed rapidly over the titles. "Remind me what we're looking for?" She glanced at him, then went back to her search. "My name." "Your...." "My name. This is the section where the birth records are. I was born here, so I should be here somewhere. Under Belson..." She trailed off, pressing her lips together. At first, Linnea had been unwilling to accept the strange lady's statements. But lately she had been having odd flashes of memories. Something about a white room. Bright lights. And her parents...She couldn't dwell on that now. She had to find it. But time passed, and they searched in silence for a half hour, until Charlie said tentatively, "Nea, I don't think it's here." "It has to be." Her voice was sharp, like broken glass. It made him look at her curiously. Her tight jaw, her eyes burning feverishly in her face, her lips pressed together in a thin line. "What...what's going on?" |
She swung around to face him, and he was caught off guard by the anger in her face. "It's not there, is it? It's not." He shook his head, nonplussed by her sudden fury. She had seemed fine at school all day. "Can you back up for a second? I still don't get why we're even here." "The old woman." "Sorry?" "The old woman! She said she was my grandmother. She said...she gave me away." Charlie's eyes widened at that. She saw an expression on his face that would have been funny if she hadn't been so upset. "That's...weird. More than weird. Is that where that jerk took you?" She nodded tightly. "And she was telling the truth wasn't she? I didn't want to believe it, but...my name isn't here. It's not here! I don't belong to them! Not legally, otherwise there would be SOMETHING." He frowned slightly. "What are you going to do?" "I don't know." |
She felt confused, adrift, like someone out of a lame movie. "Talk to them, I guess." Charlie shifted his wait uncomfortably. He wasn't very good at helping people; girls crying had always made him feel strange. Luckily, Linnea wasn't crying, but she did look lost. "Hey, cut them some slack, okay? You don't know how lucky you are to have parents." "I don't. Not any more." "Well I never have." Briefly, a flash of something like pity flashed into her eyes. "Sorry." He shrugged. She turned to go, but stopped briefly. "Charlie, we're friends right?" He nodded. "Yeah, I guess so." Suddenly, she smiled. It was a ghost of a smile, but it was still a smile. "I've never had one of those before." Then she really was gone, running as fast as she possibly could towards the subway station. |